I can't remember the last time I had a weekend and didn't think about work AT ALL!! I was so amazing to just "have a life" and hang out with friends enjoying life! IT WAS AMAZING! I don't even dread going back to work tomorrow, so what did I do to make all this happen??? I went out with some friends to the city on Friday night...not something I would usually do, but my friend Mark is an expert at giving me a guilt trip. Going out with Mark isn't like going out with normal people...one night we drove to this restaurant in Oakland and when we got there were told that we were going to have to wait an hour and a half for a table. Well Mark went outside made a phone call (he knew the owner) and we had a table in like 2 minutes later. The funny thing is when you meet Mark you wouldn't think this of him in fact he is really down to earth and a super nice guy who grew up in Oakland and worked very hard to make something of himself. He has an amazing amount of contacts from growing up mainly because he is just a GREAT person. I don't know why expected anything less on Friday night....as we approached the club with a long line I thought to myself "what am I doing out after 9pm on a Friday night", but in true Mark fashion we walked to the front of the line and were immediately escorted the VIP section of the club. It never ceases to amaze this small town girl from Idaho the lengths that city folk go to or the amount of money they will spend.
Saturday I paid for going out all night on Friday, but it really was worth it. I ended up taking care of myself by getting my nails, toes, and eyebrows done. I hadn't done that in FOREVER either so I was looking a bit tore up! Then hung out with some friends...I was suppose to go to San Jose for a coworker Birthday party, but I didn't have the energy to do that. So dualing pianos it was and it was fabulous...again not enough sleep but the time with friends was much needed. I really need to get out more....
Sunday was left to clean up this apartment which was much overdue. Now that it is done I feel I can face the week head on. Tomorrow morning is up and at them early so I can workout before heading to the office. If I can get through the end of the month sticking to the workout schedule I might just be tempeted to sign up for a Marathon again...we will see how the foot holds up, but so far so good!!!
Sunday, July 12, 2009
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
Insanity...
Webster definition:
1: a deranged state of the mind usually occurring as a specific disorder (as schizophrenia)
2: such unsoundness of mind or lack of understanding as prevents one from having the mental capacity required by law to enter into a particular relationship, status, or transaction or as removes one from criminal or civil responsibility
3 a: extreme folly or unreasonableness b: something utterly foolish or unreasonable
I have heard a definition that I like better though:
Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again expecting different results.
I have several times over the past months said this and felt like I am doing this at work. I am trying to figure a way to break the cycle without completely losing my cool at work and trust me I am right on the edge most days. The funny thing is I go into these meetings expecting to get some kind of resolution and actually move forward, but we end up having the same circular conversation over and over again. What a waste of time...and with the economy in the state that it is now is not the time to be looking for a new job. To top it all off I am going to be eligible for my sabbatical Dec 08 and will be entitled to 6 weeks off with pay. I can also add my vacation time on to that so I will end up being over 2 months off....I think I can stick it out until then. Besides I keep telling myself I can use the time to look for another job.
So where am I going with this...sticking it out and collecting a pay check is really hard for me because I was raised with this crazy thing called a work ethic. I guess I am actually throwing out the question when is enough, enough and when do you just throw in the towel. I was also taught never to quit so in a way I feel like a failure for not making this work, but in the same sentence I am not sure it will ever work.
1: a deranged state of the mind usually occurring as a specific disorder (as schizophrenia)
2: such unsoundness of mind or lack of understanding as prevents one from having the mental capacity required by law to enter into a particular relationship, status, or transaction or as removes one from criminal or civil responsibility
3 a: extreme folly or unreasonableness b: something utterly foolish or unreasonable
I have heard a definition that I like better though:
Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again expecting different results.
I have several times over the past months said this and felt like I am doing this at work. I am trying to figure a way to break the cycle without completely losing my cool at work and trust me I am right on the edge most days. The funny thing is I go into these meetings expecting to get some kind of resolution and actually move forward, but we end up having the same circular conversation over and over again. What a waste of time...and with the economy in the state that it is now is not the time to be looking for a new job. To top it all off I am going to be eligible for my sabbatical Dec 08 and will be entitled to 6 weeks off with pay. I can also add my vacation time on to that so I will end up being over 2 months off....I think I can stick it out until then. Besides I keep telling myself I can use the time to look for another job.
So where am I going with this...sticking it out and collecting a pay check is really hard for me because I was raised with this crazy thing called a work ethic. I guess I am actually throwing out the question when is enough, enough and when do you just throw in the towel. I was also taught never to quit so in a way I feel like a failure for not making this work, but in the same sentence I am not sure it will ever work.
Saturday, July 4, 2009
Santa Cruz
Yesterday Sly and I headed to Santa Cruz with two of my coworkers Elizandro and Marco. We hiked around UC Santa Cruz for about 2 hours and then went to the boardwalk and checked out the band "The Smithereens" I guess they are an 80's band, but I don't remember them. It was nice to get out and enjoy the beautiful weather. On the fourth we went to my friend's Mina and Mark's for a BBQ. All in all a relaxing weekend. I am thankful for the extra day of rest tomorrow. Then back to work on Monday! I am going to take up surfing just so I have a reason to go to Santa Cruz more often :-)
Friday, July 3, 2009
Sly and Kona Chillin
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