Michigan

Well after a quick trip to Boston I turned around and jumped on a plane to Michigan the home town of Derek Jeter Kalamazoo.  Nice to have such exciting opportunities in my life but now I am tired, very emotional, and have some big decisions to make in the very near future. I really enjoyed my trip to Kalamazoo it felt like going home.  I love the idea of moving out of the city and hopeful that I could be a home owner at some point in my life.

That being said it is going to be something that has happened a lot faster then I planned.  Which in all honesty is a good thing so I don't over think it too much.

The next few weeks could prove to be interesting and exciting for me!

Bean Town

What a view! What an adventure?  Interviewing on the East Coast for an Amazing job.  I would almost go as far as to say my "dream" job, but how do you pack up and leave everything you know.  Ok when I was 24 I did it but at 40 with a 2 year old doesn't it seem a bit crazy? My belief is that God has a plan and I May not understand it but he could be opening doors I never imagined!  Doing my best to live for the day and trust that all will work out as planned!

Boston, Michigan, Seattle, San Francisco....OH MY!!!

Once again it has been forever since I have blogged. It is safe to say that the last four years of my life have been a little crazy and while I probably should have documented them I didn't. So now after going to Africa, having a child, being laid off from my job, moving and working a crappy job for a year, going back to the job I was laid off from as a contractor I find myself in an exciting phase of my life. Next week I will be off on a series of job interviews to see where my next adventure might take me. It is a bit scary and very exciting to see where this next chapter of my life takes me. The love of my life turns 3 in November and I can't believe how fast she is growing up. I hope whatever change takes place I can get her settled and some sort of routine in her life.

My Daughters Laugh!!

Just when I think I am through wondering why I do what I do I hear infectious laughter come from my daughter's room. Her and her dad are upstairs doing whatever it is that makes her giggle from her belly. I have been praying a lot lately about my future where it will take us and was reminded today by a friend that my prayer is flawed. Instead of praying for God to remove the obstacles I should really be praying for strength and guidance to conquer the mountain I need to climb to get to the other side. A different friend encouraged me with this "God has everyday planned out for us. Why fret and worry about tomorrow if it is all planned out anyway? EVERY DETAIL of the day is already planned." I am not in control God is, yes he allows me to make my own decisions but he wants me to chose to follow him and let him be in control. He will not force his will on me he wants me to ask for his will and let him take control of every situation. Why do I find that so hard to understand? So many times thinking I know more than God does? I am reminded daily of just how awesome of a God I serve at 37 I never thought I would have a child of my own and he stepped in and said see what I can do? She is my joy! Also a reminder that we shouldn't put God in a box...I am guilty of this everyday. I pray for God to give me the strength to overcome and not run away. "The harder the conflict the more glorious the triumph." With God on our side we will have that triumph!!

New Year = New Start

When thinking about the title of my post I realize that everyday is a new start and a blessing from God. I didn't set a New Year's resolution this year but instead to set a goal each day as to want to accomplish. It took some time for me to really decide on what I wanted to do and come to realize I feel so much failure when I set resolutions only to not see them come full circle.My message from God App today said "You have to face problems however difficult they are. Having the bravery to face your difficulties is the hardest step; working through the problem is often easier than you think. The first step is always the hardest." Most the time I take on a task and instead of taking baby steps and focus on the finish line. Don't get me wrong I am not saying you shouldn't have long term goals, but for me sometimes I take on too much too soon instead of trusting God and enjoying the process. Today as I was at the park with my daughter I just sat back and enjoyed watching her run, slide, and swing. I loved that it brought her so much joy. Life's simple pleasures all to often get missed by day to day stress. The stress of finding a new job, paying bills, what to do for dinner, or just keeping up with the Jones never crossed my mind. As I realized this I realized how happy I truly am at this point in my life. Everything isn't close to perfect and I have a lot on my plate, but I am praying, trusting and believing God has a plan and it is bigger than anything I could ever imagine. I have spent the last 40 years of my life trying to control everything, make things perfect, or the way I think they should be. You know what it hasn't worked and I have be unhappy doing it. So I have a new approach, it's God turn and I want his will in my life whatever that might be. Am I afraid sometimes? Everyday, but I know I am in good hands. This is the first time in a long time I have even signed onto blogger. Today as I did I was thinking in my head that I am going to do this everyday and use it as my journal, but then thoughts of failure and not being true to that crossed my mind. So I started to write and decided that I am going to take one day at a time, enjoy this time with my daughter, and document moments as often as I can. Sharing blessing, failures, successes, and frustrations. Starting there and seeing where it leads!!

Trying to get back in the Swing of things!!!

No Mom this is not an April Fools joke....I am starting a new job on Monday and have decided that I am going to forget so many of Miss Charlie's firsts that I need to get my rear in gear and start blogging again. She is already talking up a storm and as we can understand a lot of what she is saying there is a lot that is still in question and I truly believe this is a good thing. Her favorite thing right now is tell me that she is stinky and poo poo. Most the time she is right, but she uses it to get out of taking naps and/or doing things she doesn't want to do. We have had two successful days without her bottle and as fearful as I was about taking it from her I think it was harder on her dad and I then it has been on her. Well this post is short and sweet,but hopefully I can keep them coming and make some good memories for my baby girl.

Boy How time flies!!!

It has been forever and a day since my last post and my mom and Cindy I am sure have given up on me. I am going to try and get into the groove again as Miss Charlie grows up way to fast for my liking. Tomorrow my baby will be 7 months old. She is crawling and wanting to walk so bad she just can't stand it. Her newest thing is standing up in her crib. Which she thinks is pretty awesome until she tries to sit down and can't figure out how to do it without falling. Mom and Dad are super scared that she is going to figure out a way to crawl out of the crib and land on her head, so we watch very close. I think we are going to have to drop the mattress again just to avoid that from happening. This last week she has just had so much personality. It is amazing to see the changes from day to day Ok and now I hope we are back on track because I am now able to upload pictures. We leave for Idaho in Two days so I will be sure to update you on the trip when we get back!!!